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[Saturday
January 14th, 2006 at 7:31pm] |
Last night i dreamt that i woke up in a mental asylum, and the doctor explained to me that i had a fantasy world that i was still a teen. He told me i'm 22, have a baby, and i'm married. I kept saying, "No...i'm 12, i go to Evans Middle School..." He showed me that the reason i thought that was that he was Dr. Evans. I kept protesting that he was wrong, but it seemed hopeless. I was so freakin shocked, but wait, it gets even worse. Lane was my wife. Yeah. LANE. Every time she tried to kiss me or touch me i would say, "No! Quit it. We broke up, you pissed me off, i hate you, get away from me!" Then she started crying and said to the doctor, "She's forgotten me again." And left the room. Right once i went to sleep in the dream, i woke up in real life.....or what i hope is real life....
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[Friday
January 13th, 2006 at 4:11pm] |
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I tried to talk to Lane today about us being friends again, but apparently, i'm invisible. She didn't take one look at me and walked off in the middle of me talking. I wonder if i should use my invisibilty for good or evil...hmmm....
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[Thursday
January 12th, 2006 at 10:32am] |
"Don't you get it?"
Huh? Is this about me, than what are you talking about? If it's not about me, than whooo? ?_?
P.S. I'm going to start writing a book. I post the first chapter when i can.
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[Monday
January 9th, 2006 at 6:33pm] |
Well, i went to the doctor today and my heart is fine. Anxierty problems may fuck me up once in a while, but i'll be okay. AND i have a rib injury. And the medicine for it gets me high and gives me the "munchies" per say....I also have weak lungs. All three is what has been giving me pains.
At the doctor, i had to take off my shirt and bra, and if that wasn't bad enough, then they had to put stickers all over my boobies, oh but wait, it gets better....
Then they put the cords on my crotch, so everytime they reached for a cord, they touched me. Mmmhmm.
I watched Pulp Fiction. Fucking awesome movie. I also watched Se7en. Love 'em.
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[Saturday
January 7th, 2006 at 11:07am] |
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I haven't slept in weeks because of stress and when i saw Lane was okay at school, i fell asleep at 8:30 pm and got 13 hours of sleep! OH, YESSS!!!!
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[Friday
January 6th, 2006 at 4:48pm] |
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Another day of akwardness around Lane. Great, just great.....Is this akwardness never-ending? Seriously, when is this going to stop?
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[Thursday
January 5th, 2006 at 4:02pm] |
I started laughing in class today because i kept thinking of Peter on extasy. I wanted to do that in front of Lane to cheer her up, but i didn't even try. Poor baby. She put on so much make up to cover up her face. :( It hurts me to see her try so hard. She looked prettier than i've ever seen her, though. I'm surprised the eye make-up didn't smear at all. I could'nt have done that. :/
P.S. AHA! SO, IT'S CHRIS?!?! I KNEW IT! Okay, okay. I'm sorry. I just love when i'm right, cause i never am. ;) I hope you are feeling better than you felt at school. :)
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[Tuesday
January 3rd, 2006 at 1:24pm] |
YAY! I already have 11 people in my new message board, in 2 days of progression! :)
God, i feel like shit. Everytime i try to help people, they explode at me, EVERY FREAKIN TIME. I get it, you don't want help, but JESUS, grow some freakin concern for others feelings, will ya?
P.S. If you do love someone else, why did you lie to me when we broke up? Why did you lie to me, AGAIN?
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[Monday
January 2nd, 2006 at 10:50pm] |
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P.S. Why did you ask me if my parents had decided anything further? I am really curious. Did your parents say something? Or where you just wondering? Cause i can understand that. I'm just wondering.
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[Sunday
January 1st, 2006 at 12:14am] |
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Happy New Year! Too bad you guys aren't at my house. I'm doing Tricky's Riddle. It's what kept me company. AHAHAHAHAHahahahaha.........*sigh* i am so alone.....
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[Saturday
December 31st, 2005 at 5:10pm] |
| The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! | | What is your favorite.. | | gum: | Green Apple | | restaurant: | I don't know. | | drink: | Virgin Pina Colada | | season: | Winter | | type of weather: | Rain | | emotion: | Love/Lust | | thing to do on a half day: | Hang out | | late-night activity: | Do stupid shit | | sport: | Volleyball | | city: | I don't know. | | store: | I don't know | | When was the last time you.. | | cried: | A week ago, i felt good this week. | | played a sport: | Friday, Dec. 18th | | laughed: | Yesterday | | hugged someone: | A few minutes ago | | kissed someone: | Thursday | | felt depressed: | Tuesday, Dec. 22. Aftermath of a break up. | | felt elated: | Huh? | | felt overworked: | Today | | faked sick: | I don't remember. | | lied: | I don't even remember.... | | What was the last.. | | word you said: | Jesse | | thing you ate: | Popeyes! | | song you listened to: | Incubus - Wish You Were Here | | thing you drank: | Diet Dr Pepper | | place you went to: | Popeyes | | movie you saw: | King Kong | | movie you rented: | Underworld | | concert you attended: | None...:*( | | Who was the last person you.. | | hugged: | Jesse | | cried over: | Lane | | kissed: | Lane | | danced with: | Jesse | | shared a secret with: | Jesse | | had a sleepover with: | Jesse | | called: | Jesse | | went to a movie with: | Jesse and Cameron | | saw: | Paige | | were angry with: | Lane | | couldn't take your eyes off of: | Jake | | obsessed over: | Lane | | Have you ever.. | | danced in the rain: | Yes. | | kissed someone: | Yes. | | done drugs: | No. | | drank alcohol: | No. | | slept around: | yes | | partied 'til the sun came up: | yes | | had a movie marathon: | yes | | gone too far on a dare: | yes. | | spun until you were immensely dizzy: | yes. | | taken a survey quite like this before: | yes | Take this survey | Find more surveys
You've been totally Bzoink*d |
| Ultimate Opposite Sex Survey (for girls) | | --Your Favorite-- | | Hair Color:: | Black | | Eye Color:: | Deep Brown | | (Their)Music Genre Preference:: | Emo/Screamo/Indie | | Height(estimate):: | 5'6 | | Age:: | 14 | | Personality Type:: | Flirty, Sexy, Nice | | --This or That-- | | Older or Younger:: | Older | | Romantic or Horndog:: | Horndog | | Smart or Stupid:: | Stupid | | Fat or Skinny:: | Skinny | | Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular:: | Neither | | Punk or Preppy:: | Punk, if i had to | | The Big Picture or the Little Things:: | i don't know? | | Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present:: | Flower/Candy | | Mixtape or Burned CD:: | Burned CD | | Love or Lust:: | At the moment, i'm done with love. Lust | | Emotional or Just Not:: | Emo is cool | | Sincere or Jokester:: | Sincere when she needs to be, but mostly jokester. | | Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet:: | Neither. | | Sexy or Just Cute:: | Sexy | | Arse or Abs:: | Neither | | Hair or Hands:: | Hair | | Dimples or Eyes:: | Eyes | | Biceps or Calves/Thighs:: | Biceps | | Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) :: | Teeth | | Clean Shaven or Scruffy:: | Shaven | | Rugged or Prim and Proper:: | Rugged | | Countryboy or Cityboy: | Country | | Date alone or With Friends: | Alone | | Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause:: | Rebel | | --Have You Ever-- | | Dumped a guy because he liked you too much:: | Yes. | | Loved a guy because he stalked you:: | I loved him UNTIL he did that. | | Loved a guy because he hated you:: | No | | Asked your friend's crush out:: | Yes. | | Lead a guy on for kicks:: | Yes | | Asked a guy out purely because he was hott:: | Yes. | | Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend:: | Yes. | | Lied about not having a boyfriend:: | Yes. | | Lied about having one:: | Yes. | | Cheated:: | No. | | Been Cheated on:: | Yes. | | Had a crush on a gay guy:: | Yes. | | --Their Clothing(yes/no)-- | | Boxers?:: | Yes. | | Briefs?:: | Well, if you must.... | | Hat?:: | Yes. | | Skater Shoes?:: | Yes. | | Pimp Shoes?:: | No. | | Band Shirts?:: | Yes. | | Vintage shirts?:: | I guess? | | Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?:: | No. | | Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?:: | What the fuck are those? | | Independent/DC?:: | I guess? | | S&M/Little Devil?:: | DUDE, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? | | Fox/Thor?:: | ....... | | Jeans or Shorts?:: | Jeans | | --Be Honest-- | | Would you ever date a guy for his money?:: | No. | | Would you ever date a guy for his social status?:: | Yes. | | Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?:: | Yes. | | Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?: | Yes. Jalen. | | Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?:: | No. | | Do looks matter?:: | Yes. | | Are you honestly scared of being dumped?:: | Yes. | | Does size matter?:: | Yes. | | Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?:: | Yes. | | Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?:: | No. | | Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be):: | I'm not ashamed in the first place.... | | Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?:: | Yes. | | Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?:: | No. | | Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?:: | No. | | Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?:: | No. | | Wanna be a virgin till marriage?: | Hellz no. | | Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?: | No. | | Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?:: | Yes. | | Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?:: | Yes. | | Does this survey suck nuts?: | No. But you do. AHAHAHA. | Take this survey | Find more surveys
You've been totally Bzoink*d |
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[Saturday
December 31st, 2005 at 1:39pm] |
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I tried to help. Drama started. I got blamed. I got banned. Oh, well. Tomorrow's another day.
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[Friday
December 30th, 2005 at 10:57pm] |
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Oh, yes.
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[Friday
December 30th, 2005 at 9:50pm] |
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Dude, that is so true on so many levels.
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[Thursday
December 29th, 2005 at 2:22pm] |
You know what sucks? They have Bloodrayne 2 but not Bloodrayne 1 at Wal-mart. Wow, quality shopping. *rolls eyes* I keep losing money in my pockets, so now i put it in my bra. Lol.
Edit:
Okay, i am really concerned for my safety. Some hacker IMed me. He knew my zip code and started saying all this weird shit. Hackers can find out where you live, so, yesh, i'm pretty freaked....
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[Wednesday
December 28th, 2005 at 1:24pm] |
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Maybe this is my destiny. To help others, alone. Everyone i like or love dies, or goes crazy, or moves far, far away. It's always been that way. Maybe i should just give up. Not just on you, but on everybody. Be like a guy. Meet people at the theatre, have my way with them, then just leave 'em. Never call them back. God, that's a terrible thing to say. But hey, it's my destiny. And i'm gonna go with it.
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[Tuesday
December 27th, 2005 at 10:58pm] |
I am really starting to feel unwelcomed at my message board. Someone just said something really mean for no reason. :/ Grrr....
P.S. Look at the comments from the post below. And don't you DARE look at my message board, do you hear me? I mean.....you know what i mean... DON'T or i will have to KILL you.
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